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Wednesday, April 26, 2006

Wed, 26 Apr 2006 10:17:08 GMT

Will i be? yes. fuck yes, fucking hell yes i will. do it. dont fucking sit there, just get on yer fucking marry way and do IT!!!

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

Tue, 25 Apr 2006 14:11:41 GMT

I don't want to be alone. i never wanted to be alone. i fucking hate it. i hate that i have no one to talk to, i hate that i have no one to call. i hate that i have no one to hold my hand, hug me, tell me everything is going to be all right. i have that i have no one to share my hopes and my dreams with, i hate that i no longer have any hopes or dreams, i hate that when i scream, and i scream bloody murder, that i am screaming into emptiness. i hate that there is no one to hear my scream and that there is no one to help me learn how to stop screaming.

They let things come and they let things go and they live without possession and they live without expectation. They do not need, depend, create or define. they do not see beauty or ugliness or good or bad. they just is.

just be

lose everything you know and everything you desire and ignore those who say they know. practice not wanting, desiring, judging, doing, fighting, knowing. Practice just being. Everything will fall into place.

Monday, April 24, 2006

Mon, 24 Apr 2006 21:18:21 GMT

awww. i love mikhael.

lets bring back the sexy

Monday, April 24, 2006

Mon, 24 Apr 2006 09:00:22 GMT

3 years later...

"youve changed"

"only on the outside, im still the same jesse"

"no. the old jesse is dead, your weak, dull and pretty much all around sad"

"burn? wtf is your problem?"

"you. go back, just dont say shit and go back to the way you were"

"...."

"come with the clever, come with the spunk, bring back the fun for the love of god bring back the fun. be the jesse everyone loved. and do it soon, or if your not careful, his ganna be gone for good"

"wow, bad case of the mirrormask"

"eh, yer getting there. that was semi - humorous"

Wednesday, December 03, 2003

Wed, 03 Dec 2003 00:13:38 GMT

I cannot life without my life, i cannot life without my soul.

Friday, November 28, 2003

Fri, 28 Nov 2003 07:49:56 GMT

"i just like having you close to me, even if im asleep. knowing you are there."

she makes my life

Thursday, November 27, 2003

Thu, 27 Nov 2003 07:11:51 GMT

Follow that pumping muscle in your chest...take me back...

Thursday, November 27, 2003

Thu, 27 Nov 2003 03:56:56 GMT

"i brought her soup when she was sick"

"thats sweet of you"

"i should have brought her more, like Jesus, he was always able to cure the sick"

"i dont see how you would do that"

"what do u mean how i would do that, im jesse, its not how i do it, i just do it"

"pretty bold words"

"well im a bold man"

"haha you crazy guy"

"crazy about her"

"i can tell, shes all you talk about"

"i talk about Jesus sometimes"

"but only when Jesus is healing her"

"still, it counts"

"i guess, hey wanna go watch a movie"

"sure, like what?"

"Goticka"

"i think its Gothika"

"your an idiot"

"no really, its Gothika"

"geez, it has hally barry. shes black, african. does gothika sound african, NO. Goticka on the other hand does."

"HAHAHAHH thats good man, goood stuff"

"ha thanks"

Thursday, November 27, 2003

Thu, 27 Nov 2003 00:40:45 GMT

"i will always love her"

"i know jess, i know"

wow, my mom understands

Sunday, November 23, 2003

Sun, 23 Nov 2003 07:32:37 GMT

I will wait for you for days

I will wait for you forever